There are billions of people out there…
Some you may know..for some you care..
When they are in trouble – you’re always always there…
But when you need them..where are they? WHERE?
Your best friends, your family.. they’ll always be there..or so they say…
But when they don’t..who will be hurt?Who will be in dismay?
Cant blame them though..maybe they need the peace, maybe they need a good day.
It is then you remember..there’s only one person who’ll always always be there with you..
Through all your bad..and all the good too.
Through the sickness, the pain ..and the fighting like it’s some kung fu.
Stuck to your soul with the best glue..your best friend through all your black and blue…
Yes it’s true..the only person who’ll take care of you..is YOU!!!
Became a CA, got a job that pays.
Working till she gets everything right.. she learns, she slays.
Oh hey there Mr boss, did you see did you see?
Who has performed the best in your team? It is she it is she..
Times come for assigning that important piece of work..
Who will be doing it..? The star performer or the good for nothing jerk?
Well alas..No guesses there..The jerk it will be…
Coz who cares of the job is well done or not..All that matters is that the jerk is a HE!
– Aditi T.
Just seconds ago we were sitting in tremendous joy. ..
What happened that you turned to hit me like I’m a boxing toy?
I’m shattered.. I’m confused..
Don’t mind me if taking your bullshit is finally refused.
Don’t know what struck me..what made me retaliate..
Maybe the slap here, or maybe the abuses, mate.
All I know was this is it..gotta do something, even if it’s something I’d hate.
Sorry didn’t mean to get back at you, but I guess we passed my tolerance level.
Next time, think about this..many times…several..
Don’t come at me bae.. now you know I’m not gonna be taking it, aye!
A little bit more about myself, I’m studying to become a Chartered Accountant. That’s the Indian CPA. If you’ve heard of CA you’ll know for sure that it’s one of the MOST difficult exam to pass – in the WORLD. Yehp.
So basically there are 3 levels to clear and I’m on the last level (known as Final CA). And that is where the trouble starts.
I’m giving attempt after attempt to clear these exams, but haven’t been successful. Last attempt I managed to pass one out of the two groups. Phew. BUT the second group is now creating havoc in my life. Just got my results and its a negative again!!
My frustration is at its peak.
It’s not that I haven’t been studying. I HAVE studied enough to know I’ll pass (well, should have passed). So what’s happening, whaaaaat is going wrong? So many questions to which answers I have none.
It is extremely depressing to see my parents struggle along with me. I’m sooo thankful that they haven’t lost hope on me (yet). So blessed!
I’m at that point in life where nothing right is going on. All I seem to be doing is existing.
As I write this post and casually removing all the built up frustration, I’m actually thinking if its better to just quit and find something else to do. Loads of people have quit, it couldn’t be a bad idea. And then another pop up appears from nowhere and reminds me of my dream to be a CA.
So here’s a little pep talk for myself, gotta continue to believe in myself.
I gotta believe in myself, right? If I don’t who else will? Just because I failed once, doesn’t mean I’ll never be able to ace it. Need to hold your head up high, Aditi, and once again give it your all – for the very last time! And this time with all the right effort and motivation, your dream will come true! Just wait for it coz success will come when the time is right.
Was this venting out of any help, Aditi? Did this useless banter actually get you to continue persuing your dreams?Are you feeling better?
Hell yeah, I am!
Another year has begun and in a jiffy the first month is already over. Why is time running sooo fast? I swear I can’t think of anything substantial that I have done or achieved in this month of January. Nothing. Zilch.
Is this how I want to spend the rest of my year? No ways! I have thought and thought about this all day today and the only thing I could conclude upon, is that I’m going to make a difference this year.
I am going to make this year count. I’m going to do something fun, something crazy, something nice and make it memorable. I’m determined to make this year much better than the last year (which totally sucked! Lesser than 2014, but it did suck alright). I don’t know how I’m going to achieve this as yet. Maybe time will tell.
But for now I’m going to make a to-do list. Like a bucket list for the year 2016. I’ll try my best to tick of all of them. Who knows, at the end of the year I may actually have something to smile about when I think of 2016.
Sharing the same with you’ll as we’re going to be in this together. Here goes.
1. Travel – Visit at least 2 new cities.
2. Do something that I have never done in my life before.
3. Social service – help someone/something through charity/donations/actions.
4. Get a decent job.
5. Make a friend who resides outside Mumbai.
6. Learn to cook.
7. Get at least one tick on the “Life bucket list” (Let me know if you’ll are interested in my ultimate bucket list – in the comments section below)
8. Reading goals – 10 books
9. Get the desired weight and fitness. (VERY IMPORTANT)
10. Get 50 followers on this blog. (Wheeeeee)
Yeah, that’s all that I could think of which is actually achievable in this year.
What do you guys think of this list of mine? Do any of you’ll have a list like this? What’s in it? Is there anything that I should add to this list of mine? DO LET ME KNOW.